So I got hired on at a privately owned exxon on Monday. Today was my first day of doing day shift. Before today I felt somewhat fine about things but after today my God, there's so much to counting down the drawer at closing. They make it to where a certain amount of certain Bill's has to be in the drawer. Today 1 of the girls that has been there for quite some time now showed me and the girl that started today how to close down the lottery. There was so much to it to where she multiplied certain numbers, added certain numbers and I don't know what all. I don't know why it takes me so long to learn things and to get them down and to actually contain things. I feel like I'm not containing them fast enough. I feel like I'm just waiting to be told I'm fired. I don't know what to do. I'm recently separated and I need a way to do things for myself and for my son. I completely relied on him and was a stay at home mom and house wife. I feel like maybe I'm just not a worker and like it's just too late to get good work ethics. Me and my son has been staying with my parents for the last 3 years since my husband hasn't had a home for us. I guess I was waiting for him to come to his senses and hoping things would go back to how they had been. I just don't know #stress #worry #overthinking #notcontaing