
Ready to quit
I am ready to quit. My job tells me they want me to increase our numbers. They tell me I have a budget to do this, but when I tried to use some of this budget, they got upset. When the numbers did not change much, and I did not spend any money, they got upset. In other words, make things happen, but don't spend any money. Damned if you do and damned if you don't. I think they are trying to get me to quit because the other day they asked me to prepare two presentations in less than 48 hours only to complain that it wasn't what they were looking for. Can anyone produce a polished presentation within that timeframe let alone two? I did the best I could do and stayed up late to do so. I am thinking of calling in sick tomorrow in hopes of forcing their hand. I am very hardworking and dedicated, but it's getting to be too much. I am frustrated because I have worked my butt off trying to make things happen (weekends, late and long hours) and it is never what they want because they do not want me there. I also have to deal with the hostility of three racist women who just don't want me there. Why are women so damned awful to each other on the job? I am trying to figure out what I have done to piss these women off or make these people hate me. I am anxious and irritable about dealing with this toxic work environment. Part of me wants to quit to save my sanity, but it may be months before I get another job because there would be a long gap in employment like almost a year, if I don't list this job. I have thought of talking to my boss and saying something like I cannot give you what you want if I am not allowed to do my job. Any advice would be appreciated.

I would meet with them first. Find out what they expect from you and if there are any misunderstandings or miscommunication. Your bosses may just be difficult. Having a meeting with them though is a professional way to let them know that you are tired of the B.S.

Hi K S - I am so sorry to hear this. That absolutely sounds like a terrible work environment, and a culture that does not care at all about your mental well-being. I truly don't understand it, as study after study has shown that your employees work harder and are more efficient when they are happy and feel valued in your organization.
I would continue trying to do your best there while you look for another job. Are there any employees there who you get along with and know you are dedicating so much time and energy to this job? It definitely sounds like you don't want to use your manager as a reference, but there is no reason you can't use them!
I don't think you're being given reasonable expectations for anyone. Check out this conversation for some great information on the search, and related things (mental health, strategy, etc.)
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