SUPER DUPER FRUSTRATED
After 8 months of applying to a lot of Admin positions I finally got a job! I was so excited. It's in a great area where I wanted to work for a long time. I'm so thankful and grateful for this job. God is good always. I was down to my last of everything and owed all my credit cards and bills. Before I landed this job I was homeless due to an amazing set of circumstances that I won't go into. Now you can understand how desperate I was for a job. However, since I've gotten the job which was in March, I've moved into a new apartment, caught up on some of my bills (not all and still have a long ways to go) and even managed to start a little savings account. Herein lies the problem. I'm totally and unequivocally unhappy in this new job. The job is great and my responsibilities are challenging but manageable. I started off working for 7 people and now I work for 12 people and with the same salary which is not much. However, the problem is my colleagues. They have their
clicks and it's very uncomfortable. If I ask for any kind of help with a program or assignment, they go to the boss and tell him that I don't know what I'm doing. I try to join conversations, to no avail. I try to show myself friendly to no avail. I'm excluded from conversations (especially non-work related) there was a company outing and I went and boy did I regret it. We weren't allowed to bring anyone so I spent the time by myself. How embarrassing. No one even talked to me. When I tried to talk to them they were polite but made it clear they weren't interested in talking to me. I was in the bathroom and overheard the other Admins talking about me saying I'm not friendly and I don't talk to them! I'm at my wits end. I didn't get a job to make friends but it would be nice to have at least 1 person in my corner. I don't know what I did or didn't do. It's so uncomfortable that I'm seriously thinking of leaving but just can't afford to. Any advice?????