I believe the one position they sent me too I was not the right race. I was learning for the first time leasing consultant. However, it is a lot to that job. Seemed at first easy but you have to remember and learn a lot. I love challenges time for growth, so I take on that as an experience. However, it takes time, to learn a job. I believe in trial and error we learn from that. That sometimes to me is the best teacher. However, I was assigned there for 30 days. I was learning, giving it my best but I made some mistakes. I was learning from them. Nothing major, I picked up the wrong key to for a tour, I forget my initials behind my repair ticket. Once put in a ticket for the wrong thing. Other than that was doing a pretty good job, helping the residence, inputting the information into a newly learned system. Gave up my weekends, driving far to the job, getting there every day early, not taking lunch or breaks. But in a matter of two weeks into the assignment, they hired someone else didn't tell me that my assignment had ended. My placement worker said when I called to check on something. I was hurt said wow I work all day nobody says nothing. I didn't want to work every weekend and drive that far to work every day. Thus, I was glad for the opportunity. They all were Hispanics, and they hired and Hispanic. I felt out of place most of the time, the way I was treated but was dealing with it being professional and courteous. That is the private job market operates. I know when am being confronted by racism. It hurts, but it is life. I can't help my skin color, but I am not ashamed of who God made me be. He made me I didn't and will not go away. It is sad that some will still focus on that rather than your attributes and charter. I am a loving person, treat everyone the same regardless of their race. People are people to me. Unless you show me different, I treat people nice and with respect at all times. That is what my Bible teaches me. I believe in his word. People want to work, need jobs, and I don't understand how people can be so cruel at times like these. I am down right now; my heart hurts, but I am thankful for the temp agency, but I need a permanent job. This Christmas will be a sad one because I don't have much to give to my grandkids that I love to help. One of my granddaughters is getting to go to college. She has been on honor from first grade until now. I want to buy her things to go off to college. People don't know what your struggles are when you are working not all the time it is not all about you. I help my grandkids. That was one of the things in life I enjoyed the most was helping my daughter with her kids. She has a degree in Accounting living in NC and struggling with four children. I would help her, my mother I wanted to help her, my oldest grandson is incarcerated, and I was helping him, trying to give him a place to stay. My daughter can't deal with him and her other kids. I was working trying to get him to turn his life around before it is too late. It is not easy in this world for some people, and I help people when I was working. Now I am struggling more. I may lose my home, all I have worked for all these years. Nobody knows what a person is dealing with in their lives to destroy their career and why because you don't like me for whatever reason. Sometimes I feel like dropping out of life, but Christ keeps me going. When you lose a good job after many years, you feel lost, out of it, and to be caught up in a system with all this type of mannerism is so disappearing. Days I cry and wonder why this happened to me. I thank you for this sight. I have read many hearts felt stories out here and it lets me know that I am not alone. Many people are out of work, and it is so, so sad. People have been dealing with this, and I never know how many people were until I lost my good government job. I pray for us all that God moves in all our lives