A Little Help Here....
I've been working at my new job since the second or third week of January. (I can't remember). I've learned a lot but I am still being impatient with my tasks, getting them done quickly so I am trying to SLOW DOWN. However, I am becoming paranoid. My manager doesn't seem to be as cheerful to me as she did when I first started...And I make a mistake at least once a day that she has to point out (remind me, etc). I basically psyching myself out of this job.
I enjoy the work, the low-key work pace is a challenge, but I'm dreading some kind of meeting in which she says, "Jim, I've noticed you're not paying enough attention to detail, making mistakes, etc etc." I've been working on "attention to detail" in many roles so it's a challenge for me. My goal is to make her life easier and more successful and I'm afraid that I'm just causing her too much "noise" and that she can't trust me.
I'm pretty sure this is all in my head. Sometimes I'm own worst enemy and can't get out of my own way. My last two positions were kind of traumatic in terms of managers so I'm still carrying that over.
Oh no Jim, don't be paranoid! I think it's totally reasonable for you to make mistakes during your first month at a new job - I'm sure your manager is actually grateful that you're only make one, rather than a bunch each day! And I wouldn't read too much into her demeanor - as we get a little less "new and sparkly" to our bosses and coworkers, they might not be as conscious as making you feel welcome. I think a better barometer is to see how she's treating other coworkers and compare it to you - if her behavior's pretty similar, you've got nothing to worry about. I would also suggest having a review meeting with her and letting her know you want to make her life easier. Ask what you can do around the workplace to help out - sometimes just offering your help is all a manager really needs to hear.
Great to hear the update, and that you're not feeling as paranoid! We're all prone to mistakes and being new to a company definitely brings on a heightened sense of personal awareness.
I just read this blog post about being the new employee on the block, and thought you may find it interesting! Keep us updated and keep your head up! : http://blog.hubspot.com/marketing/new-employee-do-this-not-that