I have had it.....
I know I need work, but it seems like I have to get work that I hate with a passion in order to survive. I am a broken human being, but I do have a decent work ethic. I feel like I am being judged for having so many jobs in a short time period, along with being judged on my appearance (I have a buzz cut, because it saves a lot of money). I have been told that past interviewers like a lot of my answers, but I don't believe them since I am still trying to find work. I don't have the mentality to join any military service and my Bachelor's degree in Business Administration is useless. I lost the love of my life for stupid mistakes of not being there for her and her daughter. I honestly feel I am being judged for typing that as everyone nowadays assumes the worst about people they meet. I know perseverance is key and I have been told I have that, but it has gotten me nowhere. I have learned that I have made the poorest choices in my life. Freewill is the worst gift ever. I don't think I can recover from my consequences that I am dealing with. Life would be easier if I was a robot.
Hi Tim: I'm really sorry you've been going through some tough times at the moment. But with that being said, I think you're being really hard on yourself to the point where it's preventing you from moving forward with your life. On the job front, it's tough to take on work that we know we're going to hate, but sometimes it's better to do that simply as a mode of survival. Just make sure you have an exit plan in place so you don't end up staying there for longer than you want to. Plus, it's always easier to look for the job you actually want when you're getting a steady paycheck. And remember, everyone makes poor choices - it's what you do afterwards that measures who you are as a person. Lick your wounds, but come back up and fight on. You'll eventually get to a place where you'll look back on this period in your life and barely remember it, I promise.