Maneuvering through a Dead End Life!
Ever wake up with a great big knot in your stomach from all the stress built up thinking about the workday ahead. The abusive boss, the crazy stupid customers, the co-workers that don’t do crap but get away with murder, the paycheck that’s always spend before you cash it. Your body mechanics go into auto-pilot.. get up, shower, dressed, coffee, etc. but the mind is in a state of never ending agony trying to figure out how the hell are you going to get out of this dreadful routine and crappy life - “What am I going to do with my life?”. I hate asking myself that question! The devil on your shoulder starts to intervene and reminds you that all the jobs are the same. Happiness and fulfillment at work is a myth. It is what it is.. when all you have are lemons then make lemonade you idiot!! Sadly, that’s been my daily routine for almost 2 years now. Anxiety and depression would be an upgrade for how I’m feeling right now. I can’t see an end to this death march and the thought of being in the same place for another 10 years is driving me closer towards a nervous breakdown. I have 2 years of Jr. college with some retail and general assembly experience but no real valuable skills worth taking me to another level. What am I going to do with my life?
Don't forget - means to an end. Sounds like you might need to find more activities outside of work to drive you through the work week.
I got one of those knots right now so don't think what your feeling is uncommon. Lots of people feel the same way but some are better at hiding it. Recognizing you need change is the first step. Nothing is possible if you don't act on it. Get a plan together and execute!
Update your resume, search for jobs, enroll in a class. Get out of the routine by involving yourself in activites, events, and people that aregoing to help drive you forward or down another more fruitful path.