Been out of work now two months to date the fact that I don't have a job and are getting no call backs and having a Sh***y marriage has taken it's toll. I find it hard just to hold together. I am sitting here attempting to complete and assignment for university and I cannot. I cannot pull it together mentally to complete the asignment or even really figure it out. I can honestly stepped in by now but they have not and I donot believe they are going to if they exist the only thing that is got me holding on as best as I do is my kids I have two boys 6 and 7 years old. If were for my boys I would just leave and go somewhere, where I do not know but I know I would leave I would just go. Maybe it is depression from the crap marriage of 7 years along with not having a job. Either way not having a job has just like been the final straw. It is crazy my oldest son is saying he is always praying for me so that I live and never say I am not sure if Jesus or God exist if that were the case and they did they would have die.Crazy thing I taught him to pray and I think it was a waste words because I don't think Jesus nor God are real at this stage in my life. I think I believed it because I was taught it as a child as were many of you and I think this proves it. The Bible is just scripts written by scholars possibly government figures to help control society and Jesus and God are you and me Jesus and God are us with hope not a actual being.