I would often ask myself, "what is a dream job?" I think that it's a position where I feel confident in my abilities, believe in the work that the company is doing, am respected for my contribution in the company. Also, the pay is good where I could live comfortably and still set money aside in a savings account. However, I lost sight of my views when my world came crashing down. My adult child moved back home and required constant emotional and financial support. (I still cannot find any government help out there for him). In addition, I became sick and could only concentrate on getting through the work day so I could go home and try to get rest so I could be better the next day. Some evenings I had to choose between providing support for my child over rest. This became such a vicious cycle that I lost sight of my views completely and was more of a hindrance than a contribution. to the company.

I felt that I had no other choice because I did not get any paid time off and my health insurance did not cover hospitalization where I could request to go into the hospital to find out why I was so sick because I worked as a temp. After several months of sub-par healthcare and burning the candle at both ends, my very good paying dream job came to an abrupt end. I'm still learning that I need to take care of myself and it is important to live within my means because I am now buried alive in debt. Although I did get another job (assignment), the pay is less and the drive is longer which means that I'm paying more to go to work now and can barely keep my head above water.

Today, my "dream job" is to have a job to go to, to make money to put gas in my car and to be able to pay just enough of my bills where I can stay in my home and my utilities remain on so I can buy enough food to quiet our stomachs where my workplace does not notice the hardship. I am hopeful that my views of my "dream job" will change to my original views and more fulfilling days are coming.