I want to get a better job, I do, but I’m having trouble even working myself up to the point where I feel like I can. It seems like whatever I do, there’s always someone or something there to knock me back and show me that no matter how hard I try I’ll always be in the same miserable place. Looking around here, it seems like there’s so much pain involved in job searching. Why immerse myself in all that when I can just stick to the pain I know, the pain of working a job I hate, of not being heard or valued. That’s pain I’m familiar with. I feel unprepared to strive and I don’t even know where to start. My heart longs for something different but my head tells me there’s nothing there for me except a new kind of struggle. Is it even worth it to try?