I would recommend trying to improve your communication skills. You seem like a sincere , hard-working person. Your post is full of at least a dozen grammatical errors. Good Communication is essential to any position. I would recommend you find your passion and follow it. Gain additional skills and knowledge to do what you dream of doing! Life is too short not to live your dreams. Confidence will come across in the interview. Confidence comes from knowledge and skills. May you pursue not only the right job, but find the right career and passion for you!!! Make your dreams come true!!!